so yet again we find ourselves at the end of another eventful year. There have been many good times, awesome memories, and great friends made. There has been pain and sorrow, and downright just horrible days. But when you look back on it, its just lessons learned that have amounted to the people we are becoming as we grow up.

as my sophomore year closes, i find myself a little upset with how the year ended up. I must admit that i didn’t even get around to half the things i wanted to do as i’m growing up and losing precious time to just have fun and not worry about everything thats going on around me. This year was full of struggles….. my family going through rough times, my grades suffering, and sports not exactly going as planned. I’ve made some mistakes, well many actually, that i definitely wish i could take back, but all i can do now is learn from my past, grow, and keep going. I’ve lost some good friendships through stupid fights, or people changing, but they are following the path they want to make for themselves, and i wish them all the best. I’ve denied myself alot of good opportunities, and been very masochistic for it. so, this year, i can say that my feelings are mostly bitter.

but….i have to think of all the blessings i have in my life. Even though things didn’t go very well this year, i am alive, i keep going, i have my family to support me, great friends to help me along and share great memories with, i am in good health, still have sports, have a summer to rethink deeply rooted assumptions, and always have the chance to start over. Most of all, i have my savior to be there for me every step of the way. 

so even though i am disappointed this year is over, and i didn’t fix things that i should’ve, i am grateful that the year is behind me, and i have time to step away from my everyday life and ask myself what i truly want to do with the rest of my life. i have this bitter-sweet feeling about this year, and am nervous for the year to come, bringing new trials, more un-necessary drama, sickness, and despair that it will no doubt bring. but i am excited for the good memories i will create, the great friends i will make, a new beginning with school and sports, a family that is finally starting to patch itself up, and a new chapter in my life that i am about to begin. i may be writing my story in pen, so there will be mistakes, but in the end, i’m hoping there will be a prince and a castle and a happily ever after.

                                               much love and god bless.