things seem to be shaping up right now, which is amazing, i know(: it makes me really happy, and i’ve noticed that people make their lives harder than they need to be. like, if someone has a bad day, they make it seem like it was worse than it really was. when all they really need to do is fume for a little bit, and then blow it off. i know some things take time, but if you’re always preoccupied with the little bad things that happen in life, the yeah, your life is going to look like it sucks.

so here’s my new philosophy, GET OVER IT(:

anyways, so i struck upon an epiphany today while i was out to dinner with my friend rachel We headed out to cook’s corner for dinner, it was all you can eat pasta wednesday(: which i had no idea existed, but it was cool. but as we sat there, i looked around at all the bikers with their leather chaps, riding jackets, boots, and beards with faces that look like leather. and they were sitting there eating spaghetti with meatballs and salad and breadsticks, and they were drinking beer and smoking cigars. classy huh? and i realized, this is probably their idea of a good night, and i realized, if i keep going nowhere with my life, this is where i could end up. at bars drinking beer and smoking cigars every night. and that’s not what i want to do.

i keep telling myself that someday i’m going to change, but every day i push it off saying tomorrow will be the day. and then again and again and again. so when am i going to finally make that change? NOW. because if not, i could end up a loser, and i want to BE somebody. do i know who that somebody is? no. but i do know that in 20 years, i want to have the life i’ve always dreamed of. noy sitting at a picnic table every wednesday for all-you-can-eat pasta.

                           with spaghetti and cigars.